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Name: Shelley
Location: Singapore, Singapore
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Interests: Singing, dancing, clubbing, tattooing, body piercing, nail art, dolling up myself, Jay Chou n eating....
Expertise: Making up, Modelling shows, Nail arts... =)
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Sunday, March 06, 2011

 明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真的真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人


明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
可能 在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能 永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我 不願放棄這裡面一點點可能 寧願笨也不想要悔恨


愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我相信有點可能

I am just so silly, dumb, naive and foolish... Again, you disappoint me...

Over and over...

明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分

我太笨 明知道你是錯的人

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I memerize the you that brings nothing but smile to me... i have awaited but it will never return...


Saturday, February 19, 2011

Randon-ness...

Tired...

Tired of everything...

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.Maybe a sweet little break just for me and myself?

Where should i go?

Maybe a trip with my colleagues should be good...

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Sunday, January 09, 2011

2010 has been cruel... 
2011 - 9 days have passed... Its no better... Tears have been rolling... 

I am so sick of this situation feeling decluded, disgusted and overly switched... 

Yet here i am still loving you trying to plan surprises for our 2nd anniversary... Stupid enough to still bear hopes.. 

I am broken n torn... Who can save me?? 


Thursday, December 30, 2010

Moving forward to year 2011

 A wink of an eye will bring us over to year 2011...

Sitting here blogging, takes me down memory lane for a stroll... Reflections of whatever has happened thus far, prompting myself with various questions that i could... How was your 2010? I bet it was good, but it could be better...

Well, to me, the year started off wrongly, with consequences that i had beared.. Not looking back, but towards the future now... I am determine hard to start of my 2011 well.. and that i could sit here same time next year, blogging with a smile...

www.xanga.com/ralia has established since she was in her teenage years... over the years, readers come and go, leaving footprints in my life... Thank you to all of you out there that has walked with me thus far... Even though i do not blog much, but this blog do have a deep sense of ownership and belonging for me... A place that i could rumble all that i could, cry out while blogging, having the deepest thoughts to myself... Some posts are protected or private... Certain privacy i would still lie in across...

Have you set out your Resolutions for 2011 ?

I have mine ready... Ain't sharing like the past years... Alot are repeats, but i would not want to paint bed of roses and lead a bed of thorns... I would share my accomplishments as i get closer to them...

I still believe nothing and nobody in this earth indespensable... But most people come and go in our life... Some leave down deep etches in our heart and memory, while some, you wish they never existed... Tears flows, laughters laughed, heart breaks moments, grievance hurts... Aint all this a part of life??

As i shared on FB, i was typing them while taking a big step back, trying my best to take a look on the beauty of life... this is what i have got...

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's okay to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's okay to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.

38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

45. The best is yet to come.

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

48. If you don't ask, you don't get.

49. Yield.

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Enjoy people.... For the greatest gift God has has place in your life... And Happy New Year! =)

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Thursday, December 09, 2010

Lost in words~

Recently I discover a lie that I was living which I do not even know how long I have lived in…. A lie that disgust and pains… And yet gets one to be distant and established hatred…

 

I start asking myself how the person eventually did it.

 

One that you thought that might treat you right, hides the darkest true from you? Questions popped and popped without stopping. I supposed God pities me, trying to slurp me off from disseverment.

 

I have totally disheartened, heartbroken and gone speechless…

 

If you happen to read this now, baby, its not that I no longer love you, but I no longer have the energy and strength to bring myself to accept your deceives and pain. I understood how hurtful it was… I chose to be speechless and no longer kick a fuss, in hope in lieu that your guilt will wake you up and pinch you in your conscious. Seeing you flirt on sms I could not even bring myself to go near you.

 

I engulf myself in work, acting in ignorance and that brought you to think that I was cheating instead, now I totally understand that why you chose to be so possessive; its because you are doing so, that’s why you have a heart of doubtfulness; thinking that what you are doing could be undone back to yourself.

 

I rather earn my bucks now, then to even meet you knowing that so what even I am trying my best to earn more money, doing OT, you will flirt with whoever that you deem seeing, and while waiting for me to knock off…

 

Its ok…..

 

I do have all my plans laid out properly and neatly… I know what I am suppose and to requires me to do to achieve them… Even after reading this entry, it do not pinch you up and get your conscious back, then please leave me alone, I need no one to love, I can love myself better. I need no one to care and act in pretendence to be always be with me, while I think when I get there to my plans, I will have what it takes… I do not need to be a “gf” in label while you meet your clients, friends and colleagues on the street… while deep down you no longer love me, no longer take me in pride, and treat me right… I rather be left alone, braving myself up, earn more, take charge of my life slowly once again… then to let you take charge of my emotions, and take me on roller coasters… And bring me more sorrows than joy…

 

If you ever notice, I hardly speak, I hardly smile, I hardly even want to look at you and I no longer wear the ring you bought… Your ring resembles nothing when your love in not there… I rather not miss you, not text you and not hear from you… Than to wonder in ponderings that you are busy flirting or making out with others….

 

Enough said and enough disenchant….

Counting down to Christmas, then bye to this fuck up year and welcome 2011!!



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