My entry was lost... Here i am to reblogged.. Losing the feelings that i had a moment ago...

I ruined my life this time round... Utterly ruined which my bimbo acts caused me to lose my family, friends, darling as well as Jexus. 2 final results that will portray: 1) Death 2) Hell...

Hearing this song over and over caused my tears to roll down my cheeks uncontrollabily.

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
And who told the ocean you can only come this far?
And who showed the moon where to hide 'til evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Well, I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
All of creation testifies
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives, yeah

The very same God that spins things in orbit
Runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know my Redeemer, He lives

To take away my shame
And He lives forever, I'll proclaim
That the payment for my sin
Was the precious life He gave
But now He's alive and there's an empty grave

And I know my Redeemer, He lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know my Redeemer

I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives

I know that, I know that, I know that, I know that
I know my Redeemer lives
Because He lives I can face tomorrow

I know, I know, He lives, He lives, yeah, yeah
I spoke with Him this morning
He lives, He lives, the tomb is empty
He lives, He lives, I've gotta tell everybody, yeah

I want to join you Mian to the painless, fearless world....

As she removed her make up everyday
her blackeyeliner tainted her face,
with tears,
she look terrible
her smile no longer there.
zillions of sorrow,
she cant find words to express
she could only see herself alone.
depression creeps in,
she can only overdose
or have slit wrist theory
she is completely dead
wandering around aimlessly
life's meaningless
she cant escape terror each night
she checked her cellphone
for no reasons why
but each time,
she feel needles pricking into her,
bleeding heart.
she turn to noone,
it's really pointless
she's nothing,she's already dead
go ahead and scream
its not like he could hear her
she's gone forever..

She wrote 'i love you' onto the mirror, for he no longer hears her
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I seriously don't know what more is laying ahead...

~All I know is that I'm lost without you..